In August, I kept telling myself to make it through until school started, and things would be simpler.
When school started, and logistics got harder, I told myself to just make it through the two big September work projects, and things would get easier.
When the first week of October brought big challenges at work, I told myself to make it through one big project.
Before that project ended, there were three new projects.
And so this week, I told myself to make it to Friday. To put my head down and push hard, because this weekend I’m going away with a friend. Without kids. With big projects looming, but time carved out for no work. The beach. A massage. A nice dinner.
When the kids were little, and there were no breaks after the milestones, I longed for the project-based rhythms of work. When those projects came back, both freelance and staff, I longed for a time with downtime between projects.
I’m going to have to stop waiting for breaks, and start making them myself.
And I will. Starting about four hours ago.