After attending three days of workshops and lectures and panels on writing at the BlogHer conference last week in Chicago, I have a case of blog paralysis.
Not writer’s block. I’m writing plenty and have gobs and gobs to say.
But I can’t let the posts fly like I once did. I used to dash off my thoughts and post them, unedited, whenever something occurred to me. Silly bits of my day, desperate situations that need heroic efforts around the world…everything.
Now I have several drafts ping ponging around my laptop, all crammed full of thoughts but falling flat. Not good enough, not insightful enough, not powerful enough or fast enough to make a mark in the world. Flaccid, flabby writing several days late and several thousand dollars short, quite unworthy of the brilliant writing I read and dissected and aspired to while surrounded by thousands of bloggers in a convention center turned, for a weekend, into a giant writing seminar.
So I’m dashing off a thought, unedited, as it comes to me while I wade through the notes of finding a niche and writing unvarnished truth and publishing and knowing my audience and finding the right place for my voice and reading as much as possible and…breathlessly unpacking the weighted baggage of my post-trip brain, I’m just going to post this.
It’s Saturday night. Nobody reads posts Saturday night anyway, right? So an imperfect, unedited, unpolished, rambling post that doesn’t further my brand or my craft or my voice or my platform is just fine.
It has to be.
Baby steps, y’all. Baby steps.
This paralysis. I know you. It’s painful. I love your posts– be they dashed off or unedited. There’s always truth and good writing. Always. How’s Rosi?
xoxo
There are several posts coming about conferences and writing and Rosi and children…the roadblock that was “not good enough” ruptured when I said “not good enough.” That’s usually the secret to letting good ideas out…speak the bad ideas and they can’t stop you up any more.